I have been so happy about my acting class lately and it really sucked that I blew my monologue on our last day. I didn't do my homework and tried memorizing my lines a half an hour before I left for class. I have a terrible memory, so of course I forgot my lines when I was up in front of everyone. I could barely act because I was too busy trying to remember what to say.
There was a terrible moment when I froze and stared like a deer at the camera and knew the lines were hiding in a dark corner of my brain. I grabbed my script, but it was too late and all I could feel was frustration.
I feel like I was acing the class and failed the "final". UGH!!
I'm so mad about the whole thing and should have just done a cold reading instead.

I will NOT watch the videotape of myself. I cringe at the thought of it.