I need to apologize that the reason why there hasn't been much posting about art in general is that I have been quite uninspired lately. I've been uninspired (with sparks of inspiredness in between) for a long time now. I actually feel just plain tired. My whole life has been shifting this past year. I'm thinking of what to do careerwise, I broke up with my partner of 3 years (I thought that this might have been the person that I would marry. I miss his limitless love, sweetness, and understanding), I am trying to figure out what is really moving me inside of my soul (I think that I am a bit numb these days), I'm having self doubts about my artwork, I want my own place (I am almost 35 years old), I keep having ridiculous problems with my car (I'm about to burn sage in it to cleanse it, but with my luck, I'll burn it down!), I miss life in San Francisco (After 2 years of being here), and I keep sabotaging the new relationship I have with someone now.

...Sigh, and maybe this person and I are really not compatible but I will just be too hard on myself if/when it all falls apart because everything is falling apart.

I want magic and wonderment. I want excitement. What can I say? I want it in all of the corners of my life.

Maybe I am being dramatic but hey, I can just say that it is just the moody/kooky/zany artist in me, right? It could all definitely be worse.

So there it all is, what I've been keeping to myself for what seems forever.