tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56350942008-03-17T10:30:23.536-07:00AmparoBlogger235125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-55604594060663473722007-02-15T00:23:00.000-08:002007-02-15T00:30:44.984-08:00

This is the first time in a long time since I didn't have a boyfriend or a date to spend Valentine's Day with. I actually can't quite remember when...maybe since I was about 15-17 years old. Wow! Maybe I even had a boy to smooch then. Huh. Well, there is always a first time for everything. Nice thing is that I am feeling alright about it. I am concentrating on some things and discovering

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-38208767346417273822007-02-09T15:00:00.000-08:002007-01-26T00:58:51.950-08:00

My birthday came and went earlier this week on Monday and I had a great time with my friends. Some of my lovely SF and LA peeps took me out to a couple of super yummy dinners. I also drove up to see my good friend who lives in Boulder Creek which is near Santa Cruz. Sometimes a long drive into the mountains is just the thing one needs. It is still my birthday week so I'm gonna put my Amazon

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-585741766233402202007-01-26T00:57:00.000-08:002007-01-26T00:58:48.804-08:00

Azure azure azure. Lovely and sparkly. :-)

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-23483355342993184612007-01-19T12:38:00.000-08:002007-01-19T12:49:46.985-08:00

So the piece that I was struggling with is finally finished and will be up at the show this saturday (tomorrow). I am happy with it. I don't have a photo of it though. I need to sell my film cameras and buy a digital one. Anyways here is the information on the event: Organized by one of the Solid Funk peeps (Gravy and Sexy Modr parties) "Puzzles" collaborative art show This Saturday 7-11pm

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1168080171882407652007-01-06T00:34:00.000-08:002007-01-06T02:46:14.493-08:00

Destroy everything you touch today Destroy me this way Anything that may desert you So it cannot hurt you You only have to look behind you At who’s undermined you Destroy everything you touch today Destroy me this way Everything you touch you don’t feel Do not know what you steal Shakes your hand Takes your gun Walks you out of the sun ~Ladytron "Destroy Everything You Touch"

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1167261781526365852006-12-27T15:19:00.000-08:002007-01-23T19:22:06.259-08:00

Sometimes I wish that I could take a pill to make the pain go away. Something as easy as taking a couple of capsules of ibuprofen. Other than that I am still struggling with a painting. I don't do well with themed shows. It's like being given a homework assignment. I want to keep it in the style I've been developing, but it's hard because I wouldn't have picked the size and format I am

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1165479544206039282006-12-07T00:04:00.000-08:002006-12-07T00:19:04.260-08:00

I'm tying 4 panels together and the theme of the piece is "matters of the heart". Me: "But it isn't gonna be perfect." Friend: "I know, you want it to be perfect. That's how love is though, right??? Not perfect." Me: "Yeah, it's just all these pieces tied up in the best way possible."

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1164184068297317012006-11-21T23:34:00.000-08:002006-11-22T01:01:26.190-08:00

You went from hot to cold and then you were gone. I've asked what's wrong and you've said nothing. But there is. Before the cold you contacted me all the time eager to spend your time with me. What happened? Was it my emotion? My tears when you told me that you weren't reciprocating? That you had doubts? Haha on me. Karma fast food style is what it is. So I'm emotional...so fuckin'

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1163408724921274442006-11-12T23:02:00.000-08:002006-11-13T01:05:24.986-08:00

glossing over, and manipulating the situation in your favor are all forms of dishonesty. Truth and trust. I really hoped it could be there but what I got was a soft focus filter on what was in front of me. And if you can't even admit that what I saw was a dried up dead cockroach under your bed, then what can you admit to??

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1158870157120123372006-09-21T13:18:00.000-07:002006-09-21T13:22:37.136-07:00

I'm leaving for the San Francisco Lovefest. The next few days will be full of beats. Let the dancing and debauchery begin!!

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1158310237815462572006-09-15T01:39:00.000-07:002006-09-17T03:19:53.293-07:00

I believe in the magic of love, of a smile, of intention. I believe in the magic of pulling a card and seeing the meaning as meant for myself. I believe in it because I look for it and whatever you look for becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you look for the negative stuff in life, then that is what you will find. I choose to see the joy and magic. Scoff at me all you want...this is my

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1157678821524712772006-09-07T18:24:00.000-07:002006-09-07T18:27:01.536-07:00

I MUST get my own cell phone plan. John and I have been broken up for almost a year and I STILL have a shared plan with him. Not only does it inconvenience him, but guys always ask me, "Who is John?". It shows up on their called id. Kinda funny, kinda not.

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1157567743392844192006-09-06T11:34:00.000-07:002006-09-06T11:35:43.406-07:00

All I can say is wow. The meditation retreat was life-changing. It moved my soul. It taught me so much- about myself, others, the world. It's indescribable. I sat in silence, did walking meditation, a few guided meditations, and there were dharma talks. Philosophies that I have read really sunk in. There is a lifetime of learning but I am finally beginning to truly KNOW. Experiencing it

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1157021025314352372006-08-30T23:55:00.000-07:002006-08-31T17:01:51.516-07:00

It's been a strange week. Two people figuratively slammed the door in my face in one day. One came back to me. Although I didn't think that I was really wrong, I didn't argue and I made amends. I went out of my way to give him something he desired- with no judgment, no excuses, no words, only love. It felt good because friendship, love, and joy is what matters and arguing isn't worth it. I

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1156733816245245612006-08-27T19:23:00.000-07:002006-08-27T19:56:56.263-07:00

One of my greatest teachers is my friend Sandra. I met her while we were counselors at a summer camp. I had a crush on her because she was so independent and creative. She was always working on some dance project and she exuded a quiet strength. I admired her and her energy drew me in. We have become very tight and special friends in the 10 years we've known eachother. We've seen each

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1156584326325116022006-08-25T23:50:00.000-07:002006-08-26T11:28:59.933-07:00

Whether it's two weeks, two years, or just tonight You can occupy my every sigh, you can rent the space inside my mind At least until the price becomes too high I can find a reason that we should quit, I can find a reason to do it I can find excuses for all my shit She tells me just to work right through it She's pretty and I like her but she's too well "Cause I need red flags and long nights

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1156526828750712602006-08-25T10:24:00.000-07:002006-08-25T10:27:08.776-07:00

Excerpt from "The Summer Day" I don't know exactly what a prayer is. I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down into the grass, how to kneel down in the grass, how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields, which is what I have been doing all day. Tell me, what else should I have done? Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon? Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1156498230890841852006-08-25T02:29:00.000-07:002006-08-25T12:10:43.700-07:00

When it's over, I want to say: all my life I was a bride married to amazement. I was a bridegroom, taking the world into my arms. When it's over, I don't want to wonder if I have made of my life something particular, and real. I don't want to find myself sighing and frightened or full of argument. I don't want to end up simply having visited this world. ~Mary Oliver

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1156498559191612882006-08-25T02:10:00.000-07:002006-08-25T10:48:23.410-07:00

You are so busy trying to prove yourself to you and me with your insecurities...trying to be something.. And I am so busy trying to prove something to you with my insecurieties...and yes, to myself too. Why can't we cut through the bullshit? It's all really quite so silly. Really. Damnit. Oh well.

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1156230398513421112006-08-21T23:58:00.000-07:002006-08-25T10:54:57.936-07:00

It's been a year. A year give or take a few months...of being in LA on my own. Discovering and growing. So full of surprises and all I can say is that I am smiling and looking forward to so much. Moving forward with my plans. New headshots. Auditions. Art corner in the kitchen. Starting new work.

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1154732740414993752006-08-04T16:01:00.000-07:002006-08-04T16:05:40.443-07:00

"Why don't you try dating someone who isn't an artist or musician for once? Someone who doesn't work in the arts at all. They can enjoy art...a lot...just not be employed in that field. They can have any other job in the world just not in the arts. Why don't you try that once? How about a few times? See the difference. And they should be over age 35...(sigh) alright at least 30 years old.

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1153876428021530412006-07-25T18:08:00.000-07:002006-07-25T18:13:48.033-07:00

With a name like mine because it means protection, shelter, or refuge. I used to think, "What a boring meaning." Then I started thinking, "My name is a good luck charm!" Well I got a little too cocky running around in my little universe and I got into trouble. I wasn't careful. I've been sick to my stomach, crying, and dreading these past few days. The worst of it is over and actually, it

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1153553474641188182006-07-21T23:52:00.000-07:002006-07-22T00:33:12.070-07:00

This is my favorite photo of myself that Adam took. Laughing is so good for the soul. My favorite is when tears well up because I am laughing so hard. I haven't done everything I wanted to this week, but I am slowly gearing up to where I want to be. Hey, I'm a recovering slacker. I fall off the wagon a lot and all I can do is get back on. So here is what I've been up to this week: I

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1152494703688576652006-07-10T06:00:00.000-07:002006-07-21T23:59:25.513-07:00

I went to a desert party this weekend that was a total blast. My talented friend Adam took some photos. I am wearing the silver halter top and later a green tank top. Take a look. Here are other photos from 10 years of peeps hanging out. Take a look around the rest of his site. Lots of interesting faces.

Amparotag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635094.post-1152351525715290692006-07-08T02:32:00.000-07:002006-07-08T02:38:45.726-07:00

I always stood alone But I came to face my life And I struggled deep down inside But I survived (x2) I'm not waiting Waiting for the burning flame Ill strike my own light And play my own game I'm not waiting For anybody's burning flame ~lyrics by Krystal from the song Burning Flame

Amparo